Although my Advent writing was set aside, replaced with sickness and stress, my soul was hard at work.
Let me explain.
Over two years ago, in a moment of absent mindedness, I ran a red light. There isn’t a day that goes by that I do not thank God I didn’t strike a pedestrian. I did, however, t-bone another car in that intersection.
It was an awful day.
Life moved on until I was served papers late this summer. It was a lawsuit filed by the driver of the other car. I was even more shocked a few months later when I received notice of my scheduled deposition and court date.
And what did this person of faith do?
And I stressed.
And I conjured up deposition nightmares.
As the day got closer, I became extremely nervous.
I couldn’t eat. I struggled to concentrate at work. And the cold I was fighting burrowed in for the long haul with a cough that kept me up at night and exhaustion which loitered in the day.
By Tuesday, two days before the deposition, I was a wreck. (I’m notorious for worst-case scenario thinking!)
And that’s when it dawned on me.
In the midst of the stress, panic, and worry had forgotten to trust in God. I had forgotten the power of prayer.
Yep. Even clergy forget the basics.
So I began to pray.
I prayed for the plaintiff that she might be healed–body, mind and spirit.
I prayed for her lawyer and mine that their work might be fulfilling and travel, safe.
I prayed for the staff at the law firm that have been so kind.
And yes, I prayed for my own serenity and acceptance of the situation.
I was greeted Wednesday morning with a peace that truly surpassed all understanding. My trust in God, restored.
My awareness had been turned outward–others have traveled and survived far rougher terrain– and it had been turned inward–I was being given the opportunity to apology to a stranger whose life also shifted that Fall day two years ago.
My deposition the next day blessed me in more ways than I could have imagined.
The second week of Advent has come and gone, but it’s message of Peace remains in my heart and for this I give thanks!
In your own times of trouble, remember to trust your Higher Power and to always ground yourself in prayer.
Take time today to meditate on these words from Philippians 4:4-7:
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your gentleness be known to everyone. The Lord is near. Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Peace unto you, my friends, today and everyday.