I shouldn’t be here!” my daughter cried out, both angry and devastated that her roller derby team was about to skate for a second time at a tournament she was missing.
She should not have been home. My own grief and anger rose up as I recalled the event that led to this moment.
How could someone be so negligent? That Sunday before, on our way home from practice, our car was struck at an intersection. The young driver was attempting to make a u-turn from the right lane. She was outraged that we happened to be in the left lane at the time. The impact was on my daughter’s side of the car giving her whiplash that left her with a persistent headache.
And that is life. It changes in an instant.
Shortly after our accident it was reported that three men were attacked while standing up for two young women being harassed on a train. How could they have known the aggressive man calling out racial and anti-muslim slurs would turn on them, fatally stabbing two of them?
The lives of their loved ones were forever changed in an instant. They shouldn’t be here in the shadow of their unspeakable loss. They shouldn’t have been writing obituaries and speaking with news outlets or planning memorial services. One of the victims was 23, just 3 years older than my son and the other man, barely into his 50’s.
Why did this happen? An ancient question still asked by so many.
As I consider the reasons, I am reminded Proverbs 3:5: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Maybe there are things in life that will never make sense, that cannot be understood—the death of a child, a senseless murder, a cancer diagnosis, and yes, even a car accident that, if only temporarily, turns a few weeks up-side down.
Things may not always make sense, but with my faith and trust in God, I know that I will eventually make peace with all the changes life brings.
Praise God, I’m so grateful to be able to witness that same peace rising up in my daughter.